Sad :( and Obesseive-Compulsive Disorder

Theres no Japanese class tomorrow which means i won't get to see fefe-chan! I was going to meet up with her at uni before but coz we had this class i didnt thinking i would see her then :( im so disappointed!

Oh and gomen ne fefehcan, i have ur zasshi..

Bash came over today after work which was fun, she came in and i was like 'your cousin is here' (her cuz is my sister's friend) and an hour later, her sis showed up.. LOL.. my mum was 'their having a family meeting at our house'.. Thanks for coming by, and i WILL get you presents, and please reassure memo, LOL!

I got up today and started packing coz i thought that i'd be studying tomorrow and i have the japanese class, but now i dont! and im only half-way through packing and my bro says he wants me to pack his bags too!! noway, im putting mum on that job!

I spent around 4 hours this morning JUST priting stuff LOL.. maps, guides, timings for places i want to go to, and all that.. everythings neatly arranged in a little folder thats going in under my clothes in the suitcase, so my mum wont see it! LOL she already thinks i stress too much about things if she sees all that i have, she'd think im crazy..

On to a sad note, i tend to like things to be in order and i get nervous if i face unexpected things although i know i can do well, my mum jokes saying ive got obsessive compulsive disorder.. i never cared coz i know its not right.. however, a few days ago we were having lunch and for some reason we had one odd plate out (white one with a green pattern on the edge), while all the others were the normal white plates we always eat in. when my sis handed me the odd plate, I dont know why, i thought hard about it but i still dont know, i told her 'eew no i want a white plate' and my mum was like 'why?'. and i said 'it gives me a strange feeling, and it reminds me of something' (my mum took that to mean turtles). I have no idea where that answer came from but i just felt like i was going to cry if i had to use that plate.. and my mum was like 'whats wrong with it? you have to force yourself to eat with it or you'll become like those weird people with OCD'. and that got me thinking about why i didnt want the plate? i still dont know. its not an ugly plate, actually its nicer than the white ones.. i just dont know what put me off it.. its frustrating!

They say everyone has some form of OCD espcially when they're younger. I dont know about you guys, but once me and my sisters got talking about it and we found out a couple of things we used to do as kids that would be considered a type of OCD. Some of things were, when walking by a fence we have to touch every bar in the fence, if we miss one we have to go back to the beginning or to the one before it and continue.Another is, when hearing a word you start spelling it out with your fingers 'like drawing it' wherever your hand is, like if its on your leg, you move your finger slightly to spell out the word..

Maybe we're a bunch of weirdos LOL we definitely are! but they say all people have some mild form of OCD while they're younger.. what about you guys? any kind of rituals/obsessions you used to have? LOL you probably didnt have any.. but im just asking..

Well, thats enough for now.. i need to go to bed.. oyasumi