I've been on a diet for a week now, ive lost 3 kilos already. I want to keep going.. i really need to lose weight coz i really hate myself like this. no matter how many people tell me im not fat, i'll still think i am.. my goal weight is way too low so i may never reach it.. but we'll see..
I realized something, after i come from my break at work (from 1-2), i just can't bring myself to do ANY work.. i organize papers and stuff instead of working.. i just can't! maybe its better if i don't take a break.. Today i couldn't do anything but i didnt want anyone to know im not working so i kept stapling all the paper that i had for recycling lol pretending to be working by making some noise..
I didn't get to exercise today coz i had to sit with dad & everyone, i feel really guilty, ive come to look forward to it.. it really does make you feel refreshed and all hyper!
You know all i said about my first salary.. they didnt put anything into my account :[ maybe they'll add the days from july to this month's salary.. they better do! i didnt work my *** off for nothing.. half a month left.. aaah zannen desu ne..
Fefechan, you know when pi's been talking about wanting to learn english and be better at it and whatnot, doesnt that make you feel like you want to get better at japanese..? it motivates me.. too bad i dont have the time at the mo.. i took one of my japanese books and left it at work incase i have any free time.. my senpai saw it and told me, "your really serious about learning japanese arent you?" like hell i am! i just need a teacher.. marie-san's coming over on friday if she can, i'll ask her if she knows anyone who'd be willing to teach me.. i'll pay them millions, just teach me!
Oh, i almost forgot, chippokena yuuki is one of FUNKY MONKEY BABYS' songs, its a nice song but the lyrics are really good too.. about being stronger and stuff.. anyways, akiramenai! akirametakunai! i want to be stronger..