Monday, 19 November 2007

Falling down, and getting up again!

There are some people that I just don’t know how to deal with. They drive me up the wall! The hardest thing in life so far *not that I have much experience in it yet* is dealing with people who can be 2 different people at 2 different times. When they’re nice, they’re the nicest there is! But sometimes they are so insensitive and hurtful *in a way that’s normal for them*. They know they’re being hurtful but they’re so used to it that they don’t even realize it, I think. Some people should just wait for a few seconds and think before they talk, or not talk to others when they’re in a bad mood!

I try not to hold grudges, when someone hurts me if I cant do anything about it *can’t solve the problem, or something* I try to put it behind me. Of course this happens after being depressed about it and crying my eyes out. I try to forgive and forget, as they say, and sometimes it works, but people who constantly keep being insensitive to my feelings just let all those hurtful memories come back, and then its even harder to deal with the current situation.

I’m a stubborn person, I won’t let someone walk all over me! If they’re not nice to me, then I wont be nice to them. But when 2 stubborn people clash, I prefer to pull away instead of hurting someone and going beyond a point where I just can’t come back from.

The last couple of months have been great, having many friends by my side, it’s the happiest I’ve been this year. And I want to continue keeping my promise that I promised myself months ago that I will being strong against all odds, but people like the ones I mentioned before just keep putting me down. One insensitive remark and everything comes crashing down. I’m trying to be strong, I’m trying my best!

After rewriting this post for about the 4th time just so I wouldn’t make references that might be understood, and after many spilt tears, I’m ready to put this behind me and move on. But soon I’m sure I will be faced with this situation again, and that keeps me on edge..

I just want to say that people need to understand how fragile others are, and how easy it is to hurt them. Its very easy to hurt a person, but its extremely hard to pull them up from the ground when they’ve fallen down. Being nice to a person, and being respectful even when you might not feel like it is a hard thing to do, and if you can be nice to someone no matter what, you’re a hero!

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FeFe said...

i know u didnt want me to read but i couldnt resist..i read it..

i agree on every single word u said in this post.i have been through what you have just said. people who hurt, never learn, they keep on hurting..but what is the result? you are in pain, and they move on with their lives happily. its either because they dont care or they dont, its better to cut the ties between you and the person that hurts. i am not saying cutting the ties by 100%. At least leave things between you and the person to be within the boundaries of formailities. otherwise the scars would deepen more n more with time..

anyhow..lets be strong..stay positive..and put things behind as much as we can..baring in mind that there are poeple who care for u, lov you, protect u, will do anth to please you, and will never hurt you (if they do, then its not deliberately done) is enough to help us move on with ourlives despite the hardships we go through..

i hope i am one of those people..

i will always love u n be there for you

LUV U always:)

Ima-chan said...

Hontou ni arigatou gozaimashita fefechan. I will always count on you!
and i love you too and i'll always be there for you if you need me!

reemy-chan said...

I don’t know what to say .. the best thing is to ignore them .. I don’t like to deal with these types of people .. I HATE THEM.. >_> ..
Sweety don’t be depressed .. we are here around you to support YOU .. you can depend on us.
Really its easy to hurt people specially when the person in a bad mood !! but really why people like to hurt other ?? Do they really feel happy?!!

Ima-chan said...

Thanks for the kind comment reemy-chan. I wish i didn't have to deal with these types of people but unfortunately the person im referring to is closer than you all think so i can't ignore them.