floatin turnin into jelly kanji

I don't know whats up with me,, since i got up this morning, even before leavin bed i wanted to cry for no reason.. Then at work, since its the first day with no workshop, i was running around tryin to finish as much work as possible, for some reason i wanted to finish everything today.. an hour into it i was so tired and hadnt even sat down, my collegue joking asked me if i was quiting tomorrow so i wanna finish everything today..

anyways, i dont know what was wrong with me, i was doing everything in a hurry as i felt like i wanted to cry yet laugh at the same time.. my senior asked me what was wrong with me today when i went into her office, i dont know why everyone noticed i was differnt.. at the end of the day she was talking to someone about me and i was next to her and she leaned over and hugged me and shes like i have no idea whats wrong with her today, shes not normal.. and i wasnt! but i dont know why!

I'm still feeling weird, naitai! demo doushite? doushite naitai?!

I miss mari and her family.. i hope i get to visit them in Oita soon :) i love the countryside..

Enough for now..

Finally!

Finally! after almost 5 months of trying i finally managed to log into my blogger account! Wow i sure missed a couple of posts.. so many things happened but i wont go back to them coz its too much.. i'll start from the present shall i?

On Thursday as i was leaving the extremely long workshop we've been having for months i received a call telling me that i passed the initial CPA assesment! So i'm now elligible to start with the CPA courses which will probably take many long months (8 probably) and then the even longer and the world famous cruel CPA exam which i will have to go to the US to take.. and its not just one.. several.. anyways, too early to think about that.. for now im just glad i passed and i now have the opportunity to take the courses..

We had a family meeting today we even called in my step-sister to discuss our holiday plans. This is going to be a memorable holiday as almost the whole family is going. Mum and Dad and my 2 brothers and 2 sisters, plus my married sis and her baby, plus my step sister and her 3 kids (plus the maid ofcourse!), and my grandma is also flying in from london so she can go with us! 14 in total! wow.. hope it goes smoothly.. so the plan is, we're going to bangkok then directly transfering to another flight to an island called koh samui, there we are renting an amazing beachfront villa with a huge pool and everything you could ask for including staff and conceriage.. We'll be staying there for 8 nights, just relaxing and going out hiking, bike riding, village market shopping and doing other various water activities (kayaking, jet skis, sailing..you name it), then we're planning on going back to bangkok and staying there for 4 nights and just shopping all day long! (can't wait to buy doramas!) and then coming back.. It should be fun but we'll probably face many difficulties.. with my sister's little kids running everywhere.. anyways,, we're planning that for the 21st of june onwards.. we'll see how it goes..

I finally got a blackberry a few weeks ago.. i love the bb msn but other than that i never really use the bb, i never need to use the internet or anything but nevermind..

Can't think of anything else except to say that i LOVE NEWS and their song koi no ABO is quite good.. i listen to it atleast 30 times a day hhh..

Went to work this morning even though its the weekend, got some work done but still a lot to go..

I miss fefechan!

GOING!

My boss agreed.. THANK GOD! I'm so happy!

Anyways, another good thing happened.. they've given us a holiday from the 2nd which is tomorrow until the 14th! yay! 2 whole weeks! im travelling tomorrow at 3 AM.. My family anf my uncle and his family are going to Syria where he has a villa that we'll stay at.. we used to go when we were kids but we havent been in like 9 years or something. the best thing is,we're going by car! its going to be super fun.. except 2 of my cousins dont want to go by car so they're coming by airplane later.. I wont have internet there so i'll update once im back..

I still havent packed >_<>

Going.. or not?

I have bad news.. i didnt want to write about it till im completely sure of whats going to happen but since ive been getting a lot of questions, i think i need to explain whats happening.

I had decided to hand in my one month notice on Tuesday. Then Bash called telling me to come down to her, it was urgent. I went down panicking wondering what the heck happened. I went to her and she was like, come with me, and took me to one of her collegues' office. By this time i had no clue what was going on. Anyways, to make a long story short, this guy told me that he'd heard i was going to resign and stuff. Bash told me not to tell anyone what he said coz its still confidential but anyways, he convinced me to stay for a bit longer and not resign, and he made me feel how utterly stupid it would be to throw my career down the drain for 2 wonderful but short-lived weeks in Japan. He said to wait for a bit and that changes will be happening within a short time and then to think about Japan. Lets just say i realized that although i only worked coz i wanted to go to Japan, and even though i can find a better job even if my CV sucks coz it mentions me quitting within less than 6 months of working, that it would be stupid. I don't know how he managed to convince me but im glad he did. So i said i'll think about it, but to tell you the truth, the moment he opened his mouth i knew i was convinced.

So ive decided to stay.. i will ask my boss for leave on those 2 weeks, if she accepts, i'll be ecstatic, if she doesnt, i'll have to endure it and stay. Although it would be hard to go to Japan any othe time coz my bro is at uni so he cant go with me, but i think in the long run, i'll be doing the right thing. I hope i am. My family thinks its the right thing to do too so we'll see.

I tried to talk to my boss on Wednesday and Thursday but she was too busy. I just sent her an email telling her i need to discuss something with her on Sunday so hopefully by Sunday i'll know whats going to happen. I really hope she says i can go.. If she says no i'll be sooo disappointed, especially since that means not seeing marie or fefechan in japan.. that would absolutely suck so im not even gonna think about it.. Everyone, please wish me luck! I need her to say yes..

random stuff

Even my sensei knows about NEWS lol shes tryin to keep me focused by includin them in the lesson :D

Konbanwa!

Today in my japanese class i told my sensei "ive been a bad student" coz i hadnt studied.Somehow it sounded so wrong and kinky lol

My sensei and i will be coming back from Japan on the same flight, how cool is that! by sheer coiencidence.. sugoi ne..

Been listening to MOLA since i turned my laptop on, its got a nice beat to it.. not to mention you get to hear yamapi sing all alone...

I was watching a movie, the mist, im halfway though and now the next part won't load, bummer, i was really into it..

I missed my two little girls today, usually in my break from work i go over to my mum's friend A's house, coz its like 5 mins away, and we're practically family lol and A is still at work so i go and sit with little M whose 3 (i think) and AA whose 4 (again,, i think) and they chat with me and teach me cool baby stuff like dipping crisps in coke before eating them and stuff lol i have a blast actually.. i didnt go over today so i miss them now..

I wish i could get the energy + time to update my ipod and put new stuff, i havent added anything since going to srilanka/malaysia.. Its just so time consuming, having to find the songs in the right format or convrting them, all the hassle..

I wonder if we're still gonna stalk yamapi, fefechan? still up to it.. hhh

I want to go to the mall and find fefechan there by chance again :D we have to go shopping for Japan together..

ichigatsu no juuichinichi ni nihon e ikimasu!

konnichiwa!

suiyoubi ni oniichan ga koukuuken wo kaimashita! ichigatsu no juuichinichi ni nihon e ikimasu! tanoshimi ni matteimasu!


raishuu hoteru no ruumu wo yoyaku shimasu! nihon ni iku to marie-san ni au no koto ga dekimasu kara totemo ureshii desu!

Marie-san please correct it^^ i know theres some thing wrong but don't know how to say it any better.

getsuyoubi ni nihongo no ressun ga arimasu kara ima benkyou shiteimasu..Jaa mata!

bits and peices

I havent updated in a looong time. So i'll just summarize anything thats happened in the past 3 weeks?

My aunt died and we were all shocked, shes not old.. ive never met anyone who didnt like her, shes was such a good and kind person, i really loved her, so did everyone else. When we were kids and mum and dad had to travel, they would leave us all summer at her house coz we used to get along with her kids so well.. However, she was a vey good muslim mashallah so that put our minds a bit at ease. Seeing her daughters was hard, they're all younger than me, 20, 18, 16, and younger with the youngest boy 3 years old. During the funeral he walked infront of all the ladies saying, mummy where are you.. and everyone started crying.. anyways allah yer7amha o y'3amed roo7ha eljanna, o y9aber halha..

Other than that, i cant really remember what happened..

Yesterday i booked our flight to Japan, the 11th of Jan to the 26th of Jan. My bro is going to pay for them today.. and now im looking for hotels, although i think we might stay the prince park tower tokyo again, can't find anything that looks better..

Fefechan might be going to Japan on the 23rd too, so we might be able to meet one day, that would be cool.. i wanna have fun..

Work is tiring and i can't wait to stop, demo the woman in HR wants to meet me, i guess to convince me to stay, but she never has the time and she wont answer my questions by email :S i'll just hand in my letter then if she doesnt meet me till the end of novemeber..

The officeboy here is really bothering me, hes so clingy, and i think coz i actually am polite to him he thinks im his friend and hes always asking me stuff and wanting me to help him and stuff.. its getting so annoying and uncomfortable, i dont even ask for tea now coz that means he'll have to come and talk to me.. im gonna start being firm and straight forward, hes really taking it too far.. and everything he tells me hes like, please dont tell anyone or i will get in trouble.. i need water, but im not even going to ask for it..damn..

ive been having lunch alone every single day this week in the car in the mall carpark! how pathetic lol but nevermind, atleast the car doesnt judge me or hurt my feeling lol

Better go..